2:25 p.m. - 2005-03-11
Light Speed
Jamie and I have now been engaged for a year and five days. Where has the time gone? I'm starting to freak out just a little bit about the fact that the wedding is in four months and six days. No! Four months and five days! Good lord. I am seriously having trouble coming to grips with this. Not because I don't want to get married, or I'm not ready to get married, but simply because it doesn't seem possible that it's that soon.
It's a pretty lame thing to write about - I would stop reading a journal that talked about nothing but how fast time is going by, but it is my excuse for my neglect of this journal, and it's my excuse for having nothing to write about, too. Because how can I have anything to write about when two weeks goes by in what feels like about five minutes?
Last time I updated, it was seven weeks till Disneyland. Now it's two. Two weeks! I am so excited that it's getting to the point where I'm intolerable to be around, and I kind of want to avoid that spilling over into my journal. So I don't want to write about Disneyland. At least not yet - you'll get plenty of that when I come back.
The wedding planning is going well, although I think we need to kick it up a notch. But do you really want to read about wedding planning? I don't know, maybe you do, and maybe I'd like to have a record of it anyway so screw what you all want to read about, but it's kind of boring, isn't it?
Just in case it isn't, here's a rundown: we've got our rings under control. Flowers are somewhat under discussion at the moment - I need to go talk to the florist again because my dad's allergies mean that our original plan is not going to work. Music is starting to come together. I have a bra. I do not have shoes. We really need to get going on favours and need to make some decisions about centerpieces. Our basic Christian faith course is almost finished, thank God (as it were), and pre-marital counseling is in a couple of weeks, right after I get back from Disneyland. And while I'm looking forward to it, in a way - I think it will be kind of fun to talk about our relationship ad nauseum, because we do that anyway and I like it - but the timing just SUCKS, because I will be thinking about Disneyland the whole time. And I am full of woe on that front. But the woe is mostly balanced out by the wooooooo, Disneyland!
We've started our registry, and it's not in bad shape. We have a few more things to add to our main one and we have to decide if we want a Canadian Tire one, which we would use mostly for camping stuff. So that will take some time at some point.
And that's what it all boils down to. We need to make the favours, but we haven't had time. We need to decide about centerpieces, but Jamie wants to see an example of what I have in mind and I haven't had time to do it. (Nor do I really know exactly what I want.) The registry is a hugely time consuming endeavour, and we haven't had a chance to finish it up because it's somewhat rare that we both have a couple of hours free on the same day when the stores are actually open. We really ought to decide if we want anything engraved in our rings, but we keep forgetting about it and not doing anything.
And yet, here I sit, in my pajamas, trying to get my ass to the gym. Maybe I have time, it's just motivation I'm lacking. But mostly? It's time. I'm so busy during the rest of the week that the one day I have off, I kind of need the brain deadness.
But I only have two more months of full time work, and then things settle down a whole lot when I drop back down to half time. So until then, I just have to just keep swimming and hope that things get wedged into the five minute intervals here and there. What else can I do?
